Can I Focus?

I feel like I deserve a little break after doing something productive. Like one sentence these days.

Why did I do a sudoku? I filled out the criteria. Well no, I copied them down. Now I need to redo my table.

Focusing is a skill that I can work on and get better at.

Why did I look up an old friend on linkedin? Or try to.

She seems like she’d be a good fit here.

I was going to do sudoku. Why? Because it’s harder to get a dopamine hit from this list of implementability factors.

Had to finish connections I guess. 9 minutes left.

Ok I put my criteria into the table. Now to flesh out the entries in the table. After my 5 minute break.

Now I am not focusing on work because the checkin is looming and I’m scared of it. I actually think I’m in good shape for it. But T is scary. Why am I intimidated by him of all people? He acts like my mother maybe. Seems likeable and cool and then has something snarky and mean out of nowhere. Never happy, nothing is good enough.

I should go outside for a walk instead of sudoku. Honestly. I’m also hungry. More farro. Or toast and PB.

Now I’m tired. I can rally and do a little CAD work.