I feel good enough to capitalize the beginnings of sentences today. Because D and S did such a good job.
Do I need to meet with S? Meeting with P seems even better. More is more?
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Monday
gross. harder to focus when depressed. harder to not be depressed when I don’t have work on the horizon. ok so I should ask for more. don’t feel like i can when i’m dragging my feet on my current stuff. dragging my feet on my current stuff because i’m depressed.
no i cannot focus. blog over.ok trying to rethink this document. it’s not too late. have to find the wp.
i feel stupid.
i was stupid in english classes. i can’t watch tv without concentrating on every moment to understand what’s going on. i can’t write. i can’t focus. i can only read really slowly. i don’t understand what goes into a design. i forget stuff.
ok then how was i at the top (in the top third but still) at c. i may be bad, but other people are worse? no i must be pretty good.
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Monday
I started using the planner instead of this blog. It costs a shitload more. Is it better? Maybe. It’s definitely not as good as it says it is. I forgot to put chia seeds in my smoothie. That’s ok.
I’m so annoyed at still having to do this CCR.
Ok so tomorrow I have to look at all Bill’s edits and knock out the easy ones. Then/amidst that talk to S about the air monitoring report for MC. Then talk to K about remaining comments on SB that we can knock out together. Then schedule a conversation with B and probably K to figure out the rest. And I guess TT. I just have to do my best and get home in time to go to MF.
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Wednesday
I think next is infrastructure. Did that on Thursday I guess. Now it’s Friday.
Expense report
What else? Try to check in with S and K. S about moving hours. K about the soil drawings, cut/fill truth check, and SJ.
What else? Email teacher.
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Monday
I cleared my inbox, which was big. I finished my career reflection and my goals. Huge. I dealt with the SB survey minimally. And got organized for the week. I think I need more stuff to do.
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Wednesday
Yes, of course my mother was angry all the time. But my father? Dude’s life was cake, sorry.
wow am I almost there on the CCR?
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Monday
Listening to recaps of celebrity memoirs has me thinking about my own life.
See S? Small posterior. Big Butt S. It’s still hard to write down or to “say out loud”. It still hurts. And it was confusing. Jennifer Lopez, the boys at school, etc. She has the body of a black girl. I heard he’s closeted gay, so what does that mean about his opinion on my butt? Big butts were good and bad. I could tell messed up stories too. Sometimes I want to. Maybe everybody can, so no one’s messed up stories are special. Or maybe they’re all special in their own way.
I need to send that email to P, and the other email to HP. Hey did that.
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Wednesday
So far today I have fixed excavation volumes for SB soil. and?? Communicated about survey info for BC. Communicated about ERG. Commuinicated about hte excavation volumes.
I still need to:
CCR – at desk will be best
Finish memo today, that seems doable as long as S or K replies. Do that at desk too.
I could do my goals. Ugh. I could just write up one and ugh. Tomorrow
One section of CCR and then dinner. Then
Ok just did SB survey stuff
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Tuesday
I’m back.
Just do any of the things on the to do list, and you’re better off than if you do more sudoku. It’s so hard to even write that down, let alone say it to another person. Maybe writing it down will help me snap out of it.
I could finish the proposal. I have everything I need. Thank M. Add that cost. Finalize. Send to T? Ok first find the files I’m working on. This is for MC. I put it in proposals. I did it! Can I do another thing today? It’s already 4pm. First bathroom.
Ok D did the tables for the CCR. He says I have to check them.
I got hte proposal done and made progress ont he CCR. Good enough. Between SB stuff coming up of course.
